today was supposed to be a good day.
I would finally have no dread meeting from hell hanging over me. i would have finished my physics assignments. and it is snowing - tomorrow I would enjoy snowsledding and playing, well knowing I had done all my chores and I had friends who are happy for my well being

instead the result of the meeting was that the neighbour now plays more loud music than ever - I seem to have lost my pokewalker that was attached to my bag (with no reliable way of replacing it) and noone cares about me, my issues or my troubles.

this is of course nothing new. but I was expecting maybe some sort of “aw man that sucks” or “yea that happens to those a lot” or even (unbelievably) a “hey I think I have one of those, I never use it..”

instead I of course get mocked for being unhappy. noone replies to me, and noone will. I am the one of fault. I have no friends. I have no way of finding out where I lost my pokewalker. I have to go and drag up wood now, because it is cold.
I have to do this alone, I have noone to help me.

why can't I ever have a nice day without some shit happening.

oh and yes, thank you tumblr for making it so I cannot edit posts at all. now i have to DELETE a post and remake it. thank you so much. i used to be able to edit them i think. i suppose it's also my fault somehow. WOULD YOU TURN IT DOWN FOR ONCE ASSHOLE. I hate my neighbor still and the meeting only proved what a sly, selfish narcissistic asshole he is. he has understood nothing NOTHING.

BUT NONONE UNDERSTANDS ANYTHING, all anyone is interested in is say “I understand” without actually TRYING TO UNDERSTAND. to make themselves sound like sensitive mature adults

WELL GUESS WHAT ASSHOLES?! You are NO MORE mature than me. no LESS a fuck up than ME, you are JUST BETTER AT HIDING IT.