dear santa 
dear god 
give me a penis

make it big and make it show
make this clit grow
make this cavern of mine shallow

dear santa 
dear god
please make me flat

make these bulbous layers of fat
strong, lean muscles instead, so that
I can swing a bat, wear a hat
oh please, make me flat.

dear santa 
dear god
give me stubble on my chin

make the hair not grow thin
make it sexy, make me grin
make each hair thick like a pin

dear santa 
dear god
give me hips that are narrow

no more sorrow
not this harrow
no longer hollow

dear santa 
dear god
dear doctors
dear state

can't you see I'm overlate?
can't you see the mess I'm in?
can't you see it's killing me?

to be this thing I cannot be?
please take this estrogen away from me

blind to hunger, deaf to fear

do you see?
do you hear?
numb to what life is

please give me a penis