other people just don't apologise to things like me.
no. really you
yea you that's reading this, you think that this is something for you to identify with? "they don't appreciate me"
NO this is ABOUT you
YOU don't apologise to me

noone apologises to me
I'm not someone people consider it worth
I'm not someone to apologise to. I'm an other
no YOU are not an other

YOU don't know what it's like to be other
no you DON'T

I literally haven't met anyone else who are more other or alone

granted, :D i haven't met a lot of people.. it goes without saying

eyes not even glances by

only stopping to stare. judge?

children.. think I'm odd
I am odd

sometimes children are ok

but even they sometimes.. it's like.. I'm an other

a thing

THIS IS NOT WRITTEN SO YOU CAN IDENTIFY

THIS IS WHAT *I* FEEL
THIS IS WHAT *YOU* _ALL_ /MAKE/ ME FEEL

do /I/ even make /you/ feel at all?

....except for pity, maybe

NO I DON'T *CARE* THAT WHAT I'M WRITING "RESONATES" WITH YOU AND THAT YOU *FEEL* /JUST/ LIKE _THIS_

FUCK OFF

you have something I don't

you're shit people and you still have people that love you

I must be worse than shit

...I'm not even trying to be hated, I literally try to be as pleasant and kind and nice to everyone I meet
I am a difficult person. I am horribly unpredictable and unstable
I'm not saying this for pity, I am saying this for truth - I have actual fucking mental problems dipshits

yeeeeeeess you have them too omg yeees ok you're depressed/asberger/adhd/bipolar/whatever yeeess okkkkkkk FUCK

your life is hard YES FINE it's FUKKEN HARD YES I KNOW I'M NOT A SNOWFLAKE OMG

still. people apologise to you
still, people acknowledge your existence
still. people love you
still. you are some person
....

do you even know who I am?
that I actually am a Who and not a what?

I am shit people too. so why can't I be loved despite my flaws too.

I try to treat people completely different than what I've written here today
I treat people decent and with concern, I don't really think people are shit
I try to remember that people can have hard days and shit times and difficulties I know nothing about - even when they treat me like shit that maybe they had a shitty day that day or some issue I know nothing about - 

I NEVER GET THIS BACK

AT BEST I GET POLITE CONVERSATION, at worst I get fukken police.

...

..why?

if I went out of my way to treat people literally how they treat me I'd be incarcerated.
seriously. <-

I'm not people, I'm a thing.

people don't apologise to things.